June 23, 2022

Summer Bucket List 2022

Oh Summer!  It is my favorite season.  A little less so since living in Texas though because TEXAS is so extra.  They keep talking about seceding but the Im pretty sure the state will literally melt away from the rest of the US any day now!  I hope it doesn't, but you just never know.

Summer 2022

Its felt like summer since New Years March, but it wasn't officially Summer until the this week.  And while I was sitting outside, baking in the shade, I was thinking about a few things I want to do this Summer.  Back in the day I would have compiled a list weeks before school was out but let's be real, trying to convince 2 teenage boys to get out and do things with their family is kinda asking for a lot.

Me "Hey boys!  What do you want to do this summer?"

Boys "Eat and have all nighters" "Be bored till school starts again"

Me "Yeah, Im gonna need more than that!"

So, I decided I would just come up with a few things and see what they though.  Now mind you, a large part of the summer is going to be packing and moving. Which is a bummer but also convenient because we can stay at Grandmas.  And Davids only been in his new position for a few months so a long getaway is not going to happen just yet. But I still wanted to do a few fun family things together. Here is what we came up with.

  • Make ice cream
  • S'mores night
  • Bowling
  • Volunteer
  • Sunrise/Sunsets
  • Explore a new park
  • Stay in a hotel
  • Family photos
  • Go thrifting
  • Bake for someone
  • Summer hair
  • Support a cause
  • Screen Free Days
  • Late night swims
Thankfully my boys are good sports about doing things.  My first idea was read a book and they asked for that one to be dropped.  They used to love to read, I miss those days.  Le sigh!  Its ok I swapped it out for some screen free days. Hopefully that will include David and he will be able to turn his phone off too.  A girl can dream.  Oh how the tables have turned!

They already know where they want to volunteer.  Ive always wanted an ice cream maker and David is a boss bowler.  We are keeping it predictable because I know its going to be pretty hectic to begin with. Mostly I just want to enjoy another summer and get some good memories in the bank!  

What do you have planned for summer?  What ever it is, I hope everyone has a safe and fun Summer!

June 21, 2022

Lets go back to the beginning.

I have spent the most part of 2022 working hard on my word of the year.  Heal.  I knew it would be hard and Id be lying if I didn't say it brought me to a real dark place recently. But Im coming out of it now.  I will always be healing.  But I wanted to focus on healing past traumas before I could focus on healing my body.  And one of the things I learned is that I was looking for help from all the wrong people. Not that I don't have an amazing support system, I do!  Recently I was talking to a few friends that I have made, who are also living with Budd Chiari Syndrome and I was reminded that Ive lost sight of something. Again. One of the ladies is in the hospital, and another was just in for a procedure. But both conversations touched on how important it is to share what we are going through with others because before we met each other, we didn't realize there were others out there.  And how nice it is to know that we can be here for each other now.  It just brought me back to the beginning of this journey.  To my diagnosis and the reason I started this blog. And to me. Ive spent a lot of my time just trying to figure out who I am.  Guess I kind of lost myself along the way. Thankfully I have this mug :)

If I had a dollar for how many times I said I was back and would start sharing again, Id have a couple of bucks.  When life gets crazy I withdrawal and disappear.  But eventually I always pull myself out of the funk I got stuck in.  I always get back up and eventually get back to it.  Back to my happy, oversharing, awkward self.  This time it took me a little longer than usual. But here I am, after months of random drop ins, dusting the cobwebs and excited to share life with y'all again.  I can't promise I won't disappear again.  Life gets heavy and thats just how I deal, but I will be around more than I have been the past couple of years.  

So first, let's go back to the beginning.  And by go back, I mean WE ARE MOVING BACK TO SAN ANTONIO.  Or at least somewhere around here.  We haven't found a house yet.  Hell, we havent even sold our current one.  David has been working and driving home on the weekends for 3 months now.  We let the boys finish up school and now we are hanging out at Grandmas for the Summer while we sort the rest of it all out. But its been a lot of back and forth.  Davids going to need a new car soon!

Driving through Houston

And that also means that even though I just got settled at all my new doctors offices, I will have to move them all back to the old doctors.  Which will hopefully be nice and easy!  Fingers crossed.

Houston was pretty much an extended stay vacation of sorts.  And now its time to get back to reality.  And with the 2 years before being filled with lockdowns and distance learning it feels like I am coming out of a cave after years of hiding.  I still dropped in every so often here but mostly I lurked on Instagram. Occasionally posting and mostly dropping in stories as proof of life so my family and friends knew I was still around.  

So, Thats where I am right now.  Thinking about how much I enjoyed sharing my life and all the craziness of life with chronic illness.  Is going to take a minute to get back to where I was, but I'll get there.  For now Im just putting this out into the universe to hold myself accountable.

I hope everyone has been doing good and having a great year so far.  We are half way though 2022 so nows the time to tighten things up and make it the best year yet!

April 4, 2022

Menu Plan 4•4

Prices aren't just going up at the pump.  They are going up at the grocery stores too!  Anyone else notice it?  You would think with one less adult around my bill would go down but no such luck.  I guess the fact that I now have two teenage boys with bougie tastes has something to do with it too.  I tried my best to make sure they have a diverse palate and now they think we can afford to eat like kings every day!

Im kidding. Sorta.  They do love them some good food.  If they could have it their way we would have an endless supply of sushi grade tuna, crab legs, steaks and exotic meat.  And lumpia.  Alex asked for me to roll some up this week and I had to say no.  Im starting a 4 week program that focuses on gut health and so its 4 weeks of eliminating triggers and focusing on eating mostly veggies.  I figured deep fried lumpia wouldn't not be approved.  I will make them for him once I feel like I can control myself and not eat them too.  I cant imagine week one would be a good week for it. 

Menu Plan Monday

I was worried that this new "diet" would be hard to figure out because I had to make sure that everything was kid friendly and tweak-able to our families needs.  Turns out its actually going to be a lot easier than I thought.  Mostly its about measuring portions.  Thankfully we are used to eating lots of veggies.  I almost worry I won't be able to eat all the portions Im supposed to.  We will see.  Anyways, come check out this weeks menu!

March 28, 2022

Menu Plan 3•28

Last weeks menu was a good one.  The boys made some good picks.  This week is looking to be just as tasty too.  On Friday David and I offered to take the boys out to eat anywhere they wanted.  And much to my surprise they were determined to stick to the menu plan.  They were non going to miss out on these spicy salmon maki bowls for anything.  I suppose I should be happy that they prefer a home cooked meal to eating out.  And thankful that its a pretty easy dinner to throw together.

Menu Plan Monday

Everything this week is pretty easy as well.  The goal is to be prepared this week and have dinner ready by the time we get back from school or at least before 5.  We did eat a little later than usual last week.  But thats ok.  We are starting fresh this week.  Check out this weeks menu!

March 27, 2022

Coffee Mugs. Catching up. Coming Home.

I was telling David about how much I struggled last week when he went back to work. I have had it easy this year. Like crazy easy. Having him home was the best. But now that hes back to it, I had to tap in. And last week was week one. On Monday an actual raincloud was following me. It was wet and cold. We got rained on coming and going to school. Tuesday was even worse. And by Wednesday I was just salty. On the walk home I stopped by the pond and took a few deep breaths. I was actually annoyed by the seagulls. I stood there for a few minutes, letting the doubt play though my head. I could hear the comments people made.  

"Could I handle this?"  

"Would I be ok on my own?"   

Choose Happy

Now, I am usually a pretty positive kinda girl.  Im great at seeing the silver lining.  Always looking on the bright side.  So when I let negativity in, it gets pretty ugly.  And it takes a lot to pull me out of it.  But as I watching the ripples on the water, the sunshine on my face just melted all my frustration away.  And I realized how ungrateful I was being.  I know things are the way they are so that we can better ourselves.  I know that its a good thing David is working again and that I should be thankful that my health allows me to be walking or riding Alex to school.  It was a reminder to make note of all the things I was missing.  The little moments that made me smile but were forgotten about because I was in such a sour mood.  

Let's be real, I really don't have the time to sit down for a pity party right now. If I have to stop and take in that view every morning and get my heart straight, I will. This is me, choosing HAPPY!

Here are 10 things that made me happy this week!

March 21, 2022

Menu Plan 3•21

What happens when you leave the meal planning in the hands of a teenage boy.  Seems kinda like playing with fire, I know.  But to my defense, or maybe its to his, this kid takes his meals seriously.  Not only did he come up with meals for the whole week, but I have a whole list of ideas for the following weeks too.  Are you shocked?  Don't be shocked! Hes pretty amazing.

Menu Plan

There were some rules.  I told him we still had to keep it somewhat healthy, but he could throw some comfort food in there.  And I told him I wasn't frying anything.  He chose dinners that he knew we all enjoyed and that would be easy.  So thoughtful!  The younger one wanted fried foods and things he couldn't even eat because of his braces. 

Check out this weeks menu