Swim

Day 11: Theme song. Imagine your health focus or blog is getting its own theme song. What would the lyrics be? What type of music would it be played to?

A few years ago, I remember hearing this song and thinking it was perfect.  In so many ways, it fits me perfectly.  Of course being born and raised in the middle of the Pacific ocean, the word swim, is one I can relate to.  Swimming in that beautiful blue water was both doing what I loved and facing my fears. Comforting and frightening all in one.  And then there was a little blue fish that stole my line.  "just keep swimming."  I love Dory from Little Nemo.  It makes sense now, because I cant remember anything to save my life.  And I can speak whale.  Never mind...

So when I saw this prompt in the list I thought to myself, I know there is the perfect song out there.  And I know Ive heard it.  Spent all week trying to figure it out.  Then this morning, I found myself on youtube.  And tucked aways between a few spark people workout videos and some cooking video, I found this.

This song means so much more now that I have been in this game for a while.  I can feel the lyrics playing inside me.  When you are waiting on a transplant, your doing just that.  Waiting.  When the phone doesn't ring, when the doctors are telling you that you aren't sick enough or that its going to get a lot worse. When you get that call but after getting yourself prepared for one of the biggest days in your whole life, you are told that the organ wasn't the right one for you.  You want so badly to just be done with it.  You are tired of being at the bottom of the list.  Tired of being tired.  Tired of being sick, but not sick enough.  This is when I feel like I'm drowning.  Like there is no way I will be able to get though this journey.  And then I tell myself to  {swim}

One good thing about music, when it hits you, you feel no pain.

-Bob Marley