November 20, 2009

Its a date!

Well I met with a surgeon yesterday about the lump in my neck. My nerves were shot going in there. I dont know why. I was more calm when they were telling me that I was going to have a liver biopsy...though my neck. Atleast this time, there will be no wire being threaded down my jugular, though my heart and into my liver! But I was still a mess {on the inside}. I had the boys with me, so had to play it cool!

Anyways. At first the surgeon was not sure why I wanted it taken out. He was "pretty" sure it was just a lypoma. Which is a scary word for fat deposit. But once he got my newest images, he agreed that it needed to come out. And admited that he had no idea what it is.

It went from a lypoma, to a hematoma and is now being called a tumor. I dont care what its called as long as they get it out of my neck, or shoulder, what ever you want to call that area. He did say that it is IN my muscle, so that complicated the surgery, but that he could and would still do it for me. We went over all the risks and he said that there could be some muscle and nerve damage but it was rare.

I went down and got registered and did all my pre admissions paperworks and labs. So now all I have to do is show up on the 30th at 6 freaking 30 in the morning. And ofcourse, I have a whole list of instructions to follow prior to then. Im relived its finally happening, but afraid of going under again. And it looks like David wont be able to be there again, which makes it 10 times more scary. Waking up, alone after surgeries, is shitty. Its nice to wake up to a face and know everythings alright. And its so much easier to close your eyes, knowing that he will be there when I wake up.

November 12, 2009

Yet another Dr

Today I was referred to a surgeon. My hematologist says that the best option for me would be to take the mass out and then biopsy it then. As opposed to just taking a biopsy and then deciding to take it out later. But he did say that he didn't think it was cancer. But again the only way to be 100% is to take the thing out.

So now I am waiting on a call from the surgeon to see when we can get this show on the road. If I could have a lump free Thanksgivings, I'm game! I will have to stop taking my coumadin, which scares me. When I forget to take it I am always afraid I will get a clot. Not having to remember to take them though, will be a nice change. But if I am off of them Thanksgivings week, then I will really have to stick to my diet. If you can call it that. Nothing green. Stuffing is out. And as long as MIL doesn't put any on the turkey, I can have that. And mash potatoes, which I could really care less for, but beggars cant be choosers! Maybe I will make sweet potatoes. Deviled eggs?? Never mind, that would be to much mayo for me. At least I can have cranberry sauce and pies. Thank God for that!

Getting my mind off of food. My INR is at 2.3, not to bad. I was expecting it to be higher because I'm bruising. But I guess not! Either way, that's good enough for me!

Until next time :)