August 16, 2010

Manic Monday


What are 5 things you want to do in your life? 
  1. Go to Australia.  Ive wanted to do this since the first time I watched Crocodile Dundee :)
  2. Buy a house.  Have a real home.
  3. Start my own photography business. 
  4. Take the boys back home to the Marshall Islands. 
  5. Get a new liver and live up to the greatness of the gift of life. 

What are you saying goodbye to?
The part of me that feels I am not as deserving as anyone else.  I have always put others needs in front of my own.  And I mean that in the most unselfish way possible.  I feel guilty for wanting things.  I feel guilty for asking for help.  But being in a situation like mine, its impossible not to.  And after letting it eat away at my soul.  I have come to realize, there is not way around it.  I am going to need help, I am going to need to change things around in order to suit my needs.  I will not feel bad for wanting things like pampering and alone time.  I will not feel bad for asking and accepting donations, because if I could, I would give to someone else in my situation.  I will not be guilted in to feeling like the spoiled one because I know I give back as much as I get. I am so grateful for all that I have been given.  I cant apologize for being blessed!

What are you currently fascinated with?
Spreading Organ Donation Awareness.  There is so much that people don't understand.  So much more they could know that might help them register to be a donor.  My journey to a new liver has brought about so many new friendships and stories that I want to share with the whole world. Or the whopping 5 people who read my blog.  At least they will be well informed ;)

1 comment :

  1. tehehee... you sound like me!! I agree that we have to let go of the undeserving feelings. YOU are deserving of this gift, and the fact that you are already paying it forward and trying to help others now is just MORE proof of that. Much love girl!!