September 9, 2015

Dear Life, I have no time to be sick

When my alarm went of this morning, I thought to myself, there is no way I can get out of bed.  I listened for the boys but the house was silent.  The hall light was still off and I didn't hear anything so I let my eyes close.  David got out of bed and I heard the shower turn on. I started to fall back asleep.  And then someone coughed.  My eyes shot open, I threw back the covers and got out of bed.  Who was I kidding, Moms doing have time to be sick!

I have been off since Monday.  Can't keep much down.  Everything I eat makes me sick to my stomach.  And no matter how much water I drink, I still feel so dehydrated.  My liver is angry.  I don't know how to explain in.  It hurts, but mostly its just really uncomfortable.  Like being pregnant, just higher up and under my ribs.  I find myself breathing hard and having to sit up straight to breath better.  Laying down is awkward.  I just can't get comfortable. Laying on my stomach hurts but feel good at the same time. I know it probably doesn't make sence but  that's my life for you!

During my last appointment my Dr reminded me that I just need to push though it all.  She said 30 minutes a day of exercise and I have been doing my best.  Every other day is about all I can do right now.  And even then, I struggle.  Having David home for a week was amazing, but I was worn out by Monday and we didn't really do much. I do try. To the point of tears because I can't. I think it hurts more to let my self down then the actual pain.

Yesterday I was in bed, pretty much all day.  I had my phone on my chest and didn't hear it ring. Woke up to 4 missed calls and a dozen texts.  That's crazy.  If you ask David, he will tell you that I always hear my phone.  I was out like a rock!  But I did get the boys to school and picked them up. My neighbor drives me every day.  Today since Anthony ws home, she got Alex for me.

It takes a village.  A village of amazing family and friends to get me through days like today. I've been in bed since 9:30 but I'm in one peice.  And I made it through the day!  Fingers crossed for a better tomorrow!

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