October 8, 2012

Here we go again.

It's never going to get easier will it?  If its this nerve racking now, before my transplant, I can only imagine after.  The actual process is easier.  I know what to expect.  I know the team who will be talking me through it. And I know that feeling of "warmth" that comes when they run the contrast through my veins.  But still here I am the night before.  Hungry, thirsty and nervous. 

I'm not sure what number this is.  I know I've hit double digits now.  My guess would be that this will be my 14th or 15th MRI in the past 4 years.  A bit much if you ask me, but since Alex was born I've stuck to a pretty strict schedule of every 3 months.  Although I went 6 months this time.  Maybe that's why I'm such a mess tonight.  My routine got all messed up.  Yeah!   That's it. 

Shower, check.  Jewelry off, check.  Clothes laid out, check.  Water on my nightstand...nope.  God I'm so thirsty.  I know!  I'll just brush my teeth again.  My mouth is that dry!  No, I'll just close my eyes and get some rest. Can't be falling asleep in the tube...again! 

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